don't be sad about your english. it's just a matter of more practice. take me for an example, i'm not really fluent in speaking english but i'm practicing by typing in message boards like this one. since english is a global language (i don't prefer using universal, aliens do not talk in english, if ever they exist), we are obliged to speak to others in this language as a way of communication and courtesy as well.

you're chinese, right? i wanna learn mandarin although i don't want to look like an idiot or trying hard for doing such. hehe.